what makes you real?

what makes you feel alive? what challenges you? what inspires you to push yourself beyong what you thought possible? what resonates in the core of your being? what causes you to really want and need something? or do you ever really want or need anything? is there one thing that changes everything? do you need something? a reason? a passion? something that causes you to go forward with each step with some certainty that each step is worth it, and worth something, and that you are worth something? what gives you a purpose? what makes you the most uncomfortable? what makes you want more? what pushes you? what fuels your spirit to soar? who told you that you could do anything you wanted? did you believe them? did you take the challenge? did you think you could? did you doubt? what makes you trust? who do you trust? how do you live? what makes you connect to another person and care deeply about them? how can you possibly care about someone when you're far too concerned about yourself? how can you excel and be the best you can be without shattering someone else's dream? surely you aren't the only one with that dream. what brings people together? what motivates you to change? do you change? can you change yourself? or do other people and life events change you? and how do you know? is anything certain? because if nothing is certain, how can i be sure that you are really here? and how do i know if love is real? is it something to be felt? or do you just know? and what do you know? when someone asks you what you want to do with your life, do you know? will it actually happen? or is it just a plan that is subject to change? and if it's going to change anyways, what good is it to have a plan? and how come nobody cares? how come it seems so obvious to everyone that the world needs to change, but we all want each other to change, and not ourselves? and those things that we think are so annoying in other people, are we that naive that we don't see them in ourselves? what are you willing to do for other people? what is the most you've done? what's the nicest thing you done for a stranger lately? what's the nicest thing a stranger has done for you recently? when was the last time that you were truly scared for someone else? or even yourself? what's the happiest moment in your life? what made it so happy? is happiness even worth pursuing? how do you know when you've reached it? what about your family? when was the last time that you told your little brother that you loved him? or your dad? or your mom? when was the last time you got in a fight with someone? how did it end? did you do something wrong or was it clearly their fault? did you apoligise? what is it like to actually give up something that you love? what is it like to be real? everyday i see fake smiles from people, and when i ask them about their day, it's "okay"... and guess what, when they ask me, my day is also "okay".. but i'm not even sure what "okay" is anymore... is it "okay" that i don't know my neighbours? or that i am so wrapped up in my own little life that i only just ask the surface questions, the ones that don't really matter, or that don't really give any answers. what hurts you the most? who has hurt you the most? did you just pick up the pieces and go on with your life? did you think that maybe that person was hurting too? what about God? does He matter? does He matter to you or me right at this moment in our lives? what's your view on heaven and hell? are they important? should they be?

i don't know why i have so many questions on this night. but i do. and i just want to sit down with someone and ask them all of these things, and i want to care, and i want it to be real and i want them to care about me and what's going on in my life and yeah. shouldn't everyone have that? ahhh.. before i go crazy and ask more questions i'm going to go.. but yeah...
i challenge you. BE REAL.
evz