this blank page stares back at me
your words echo in my mind
i'd tell you i'm sorry forever
but i can't erase the hurt i just caused
i'm sorry
oh selfish, selfish, selfish me
again i write and create
trying to explain the feeling within
whose feeling? mine
i'm sorry
you're hurting. from me.
you deserve more than this
this girl i offer is foolish and proud
she knows not real love
i'm sorry
to love, to be, interconnected, interwoven
don't run from me
alone i sit, once again crying
wondering why i'm like this
i'm sorry
there is so much more to life
than these motions and faces we pretend
in shock, disbelief, frozen in time
i can't believe what i just did
i'm sorry
if how i feel is genuine, real
you must feel it too- don't go
i'm lost without you
stranded and so confused
i'm sorry
so selfish me, how could i
if only you could see me now
shaking and crying, knowing the truth
realizing how much more you deserve
i'm sorry.
if ever i once thought to be anything
that i was of any real worth at all
it's clear to me that i'm missing something,
crippling my life, just let me fall
i'm sorry.
we're all the same, people everywhere
i'm not better or stronger or more deserving at all
this life that i've been given
has also been given to you
something's happening
maybe some truth
i know it's not enough
but all i can give from me
that will never satisfy
is my imperfect and broken idea of love
God please forgive, this girl at your feet
make me complete
not that i deserve it
but so that those that i love
may recieve better love from me
so here i am, shaded and torn
i'm sorry.